It took about 2 months after stopping Omeprazole, the same amount of time I was on the medication, for my clitoris to normalize. It was a slow process and required patience. And I was quite anxious.
It was difficult during that process not to feel like there was something wrong with me, like I was damaged. Rationally I knew that everything would work again, and there was no reason for it not to. But emotionally, I was so worried. I kept putting pressure on myself to orgasm and to do it the way I am used to doing it. I was unsure about when to let go, when to be overtaken. I kept stopping short, and I often gave up.
I had to remind myself, regularly, that it wasn’t about the orgasm, but about being in the experience and without expectation. I spent time purposefully rediscovering myself — allowing myself to be excited about the little steps forward.
During the recovery period it was easy to get frustrated by the block that the medication and my emotions had created. Something that had once been so easy and pleasurable to me had become a source of anxiety. Talk to someone if you are experiencing these issues. You are not alone! If you have a sex partner, they must be included in this process. Tell them how you are feeling and what is happening with your body. Discover ways that you can be intimate that don’t necessarily rely on you having an orgasm.
During the recovery period it was easy to get frustrated by the block that the medication and my emotions had created. Something that had once been so easy and pleasurable to me had become a source of anxiety. Talk to someone if you are experiencing these issues. You don’t have to be alone! If you have a sex partner, include them in this process. Tell them how you are feeling and what is happening with your body. Discover ways that you can be intimate that don’t necessarily rely on you having an orgasm.
If communicating with your partner is a challenge, then maybe a little visit with a love/relationship coach is just what you need.
Nathalie